Well…the time has come for me to start back to work full time. We have been incredibly blessed with flexible schedules for the past 6 months to enable us to be fully present for all of Phoenix’s treatments, scans, appointments, etc. I am beyond thankful to all of my coworkers and bosses who have teamed up to allow me this time, I truly could never thank them enough.
With the start of the new school year (and the start of my new position), it is time for me to start back to work on a more normal Monday- Friday schedule. There will still be some flexibility in there to allow me to be with Phoenix during his hospital stays, but for the most part, I will be back to work each day.
I am having a hard time with this, as I really cherish my time at home with Phoenix and Shiloh, and I am nervous about having my attention taken away from the importance of Phoenix’s health. I have been thinking a lot about what I will miss most about being back at work, and trying to get myself to also think about the positives of being back at work full time.
- NPR/KUT– On my drive to and from work each day, I listen to NPR/KUT on the radio, and I love that it allows me to be well-informed about what is happening around Texas and the world. It is nice to focus for a bit on something other than what is happening in my life, and I love all the news and stories I get from this radio station.
- Relationships with coworkers and friends- I am looking forward to seeing some of my coworkers and friends from work each day. Many of them have been an incredible source of comfort and support during the past 6 months, and I am excited to see them and catch up on what has been happening in their lives.
- Starting a new position- I will not be going back to work as a Special Needs teacher, a position I have held for the last 9 years. Instead, I will be starting back as the Teacher of the Visually Impaired, and will be mentored by the current Deafblind specialist, with the intent of taking over her position fully next year. I am excited for a new endeavor, and so excited to start fresh with a new direction in my career.
- Work clothes- Though I rarely get the chance to show it, I actually really like fashion and putting outfits together. I am excited to have a place to go each day that requires me to dress up (a little), and try out new outfits. I am going to TRY to dress nicely for work, and might even post some work outfits on here to hold myself accountable. I would like to say that this will include doing something with my hair other than putting it into a ponytail… but I haven’t been able to find the motivation to change that in the last 33 years, so not sure that will change now either.
- Giving back- I truly do love what I do, and I am excited to be able to show that again. When I first had Shiloh, and then again with Phoenix, it was hard for me to be motivated at work, because I felt so focused on being a mother. This feeling really amplified with Phoenix’s diagnoses- I really didn’t want to think about anything or anyone other than our family, and Phoenix’s health. I really do want to show my kids, though, the beauty of doing something that you love, and the importance of giving back to the people and community around you. I am hopeful that with Phoenix’s treatments going so well, I will be able to focus a little more at work, and do well with my new position.